3:00am
and I can’t sleep. I’m feeling anxious about things and I’m not sure what to do. I’m wondering if I’ve made the right choices so far, if I’m on the right path, and I can’t stop my brain from thinking. The past week I just felt like doing nothing and going on an extended vacation from my life. I’ve been working really hard for very little money, and honestly, a few people don’t appreciate my effort. Sometimes its very frustrating.
My horoscope this month suggest that I will be changing my career path dramatically and that has also got me thinking and analyzing everything I’m doing. I know I love running my business but I also want to do more than just help other people get ahead. I’m not really one to sit in the background and I’ve been doing it for a while now. There are so many things that I want to do and so many ideas and decisions swirling around in my head. I’m glad that 2009 is almost over and I’m looking forward to starting a new year. My birthday is on January 1st and it makes it feel like I’m starting with a clean slate. New year, new age, new me.
This definitely hasn’t been a bad year. Challenging yes, but not bad. I took some pretty big risks and accomplished a lot of my goals. I feel more like “me” then I have in years and I think writing this blog has really helped with that. I really love writing to express myself and this blog has been such a positive outlet. It’s the one thing that is mine and I don’t have to answer to anyone about. I want to do more with it and I am excited to see what else will come.
I think getting this off my chest has really helped. Sometimes you just need to put it out there I guess.
Thanks for listening.












3 Comments
Thanks for posting this. I get anxious about stuff too. I constantly am working towards things and them sometimes I sit back and think, ‘Can I really fucking do this?’, “What am I doing with my life?”. I find my blog really helps me deal with stuff and sort out my thoughts. the best part is when you go back and read posts like this and think “I got through that, I can get through this too”. Love xo
We’ll talk about this tomorrow…we’re both in the same place.
I am so looking forward to the Pink Dinner Party. I hope Marty isn’t too upset that I haven’t seen him in a year.