Today is one of those days when I just feel blah. I have a big knot in my stomach about something and I’m not sure how the situation is going to turn out. Maybe I am reading too much into things, maybe I’m right on the money. Either way it’s making me feel weird today.
Had 3 really good, productive meetings today and organized my time to run a little more effectively. I really do think that part of my problem last year was that I was trying to do too much organizing online and not enough with a pen and paper. My day planner was a smart buy. It is keeping me in check.
Sometimes it’s just nice to get the blah feelings out there and write it down.
and I can’t sleep. I’m feeling anxious about things and I’m not sure what to do. I’m wondering if I’ve made the right choices so far, if I’m on the right path, and I can’t stop my brain from thinking. The past week I just felt like doing nothing and going on an extended vacation from my life. I’ve been working really hard for very little money, and honestly, a few people don’t appreciate my effort. Sometimes its very frustrating.
My horoscope this month suggest that I will be changing my career path dramatically and that has also got me thinking and analyzing everything I’m doing. I know I love running my business but I also want to do more than just help other people get ahead. I’m not really one to sit in the background and I’ve been doing it for a while now. There are so many things that I want to do and so many ideas and decisions swirling around in my head. I’m glad that 2009 is almost over and I’m looking forward to starting a new year. My birthday is on January 1st and it makes it feel like I’m starting with a clean slate. New year, new age, new me.
This definitely hasn’t been a bad year. Challenging yes, but not bad. I took some pretty big risks and accomplished a lot of my goals. I feel more like “me” then I have in years and I think writing this blog has really helped with that. I really love writing to express myself and this blog has been such a positive outlet. It’s the one thing that is mine and I don’t have to answer to anyone about. I want to do more with it and I am excited to see what else will come.
I think getting this off my chest has really helped. Sometimes you just need to put it out there I guess.
Thanks for listening.
Hope by ~Solitairemiles
